• Relationship

    I Love You But I Don’t Want To Anymore

    2019 Valentine’s Day: no husband, no boyfriend, no sugar babies, no playmate. Nothing at all.   I feel happy without these things to validate my relationship with people. To be honest, I have never celebrated Valentine’s Day with any existing partner before. None of them has reached that stage yet. I looked at my phone and waited for your text. Nothing popped up on my phone. I guess you are currently spending Valentine’s Day with another girl, I am not surprised by it. It’s over, isn’t it? We didn’t give any indication with regards to the last phrase of our relationship but rather, I get your hint. So, I gave…

  • Relationship

    Bonus Article: Those Times I’ve Had My​ Heart Broken

        I have always believed that heartbreaks don’t always originate from couple relationships. Having toxic family members breaks your heart in the most unimaginable way because they should have been your rock and bomb shelter. Hanging out with friends who would only make you feel like garbage breaks your heart too, especially when your friendship is genuine. You can even break your own heart too! There are just so many forms of heartbreak, too many for my liking. Being an independent and fearless person, I dreaded the fact that there could be so many issues in the world which could potentially break me down into some emotionally vulnerable creature. So,…

  • Relationship

    My Heartbeat Shuttle

    Forgiving him only 7 times seems to be too little, forgiving him 470 times is too much. The average person could only forgive is 77 times at the most.       Matthew 18 21 Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? 22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times.   1. I hate being proactive because it would never have a good outcome. 2. I tried to control my tongue but, we go into Cold War. When I don’t, be prepared for a heated argument. 3.…

  • Relationship

    Love As Hard As You Can Now, Don’t Wait To Do It In The Future

        It’s funny that we often assume that after every breakup, we can meet someone better. That’s our only hope for us to be able to move on. My mom has said it otherwise, perhaps you won’t be able to meet a better person. True, you could be meeting someone else who’s worse than your current ex. The older we get, the smarter we tend to be in a relationship. I’m not referring to the Relationship 101 essential ingredients such as time, effort and consistency but rather, the ability to stop loving a person completely. That’s an instinct. Very often, I would ignore my instinct, even though it’s a…

  • Relationship

    Traveling Didn’t Make Me Forget About My Ex

    The best way to forget about someone is not about trying your best to forget someone or dating a new person. Leave it to time because it would heal your heart completely. Also, a very important note from me, don’t travel with a broken heart. There was a period before I left for Thailand that my ex-boyfriend decided to break up with me. The worst part was that I traveling with my best friend. Throughout the entire journey, my best friend was taking care of me. Everything seemed to be okay until I had my first sip of alcohol. Everything just went downhill. I started drinking more than I could…

  • Relationship

    We Started Hanging Out And Never Stopped

    I can still remember the very first time we met.     It was a college mixer which was one of the lamest things I’ve been to. We met through a mutual friend. That night… I didn’t even know your name nor could I recognize your face. Little did I know that a year later we’d be here. I had to get some goods for my roommate and reached out to you (after that mutual friend gave me your number). You met me in the library… you asked me if I wanted dinner. I didn’t even know you… It was the first time we met. I said yes. I don’t…

  • Relationship

    Post Valentine’s Day: A Chat With An Old Friend

    Met up with an old friend of mine and he picked me up in his new car. Some things just won’t change between us. I was the first passenger of his new car and he still teased me for not driving. My side job is being a professional passenger. There were times when we fought because we weren’t able to understand each other’s perspectives. Fast forward to now, we quarrel lesser because due to the fact that we have decided to part ways for good. It’s funny that after some time being away from each other, we still keep in contact with each other. We don’t remember the details of…

  • Mental Health,  Relationship

    You’re The One Who Got Away

    I, L, take you, L, to be my lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part. I hate wedding vows because I never like the last line till death do us part. Does that mean we stopped loving each other after we died? If that’s the case, I’m going to change the vow to ‘until the end of infinity’ because I still want to love you even after death. Thank you for giving me the kind of love I need which matches my vow. Our time together is…

  • Mental Health,  Relationship

    Buy Yourself A Bouquet Of Flowers

    The longer I see myself not in a relationship with anyone, the more I am going to pamper myself. The cupid isn’t on my side anyway. I have never celebrated Valentine’s day throughout my life because I simply don’t have a partner during that day. Furthermore, I am not going to lower my standards just to find a temporary lover. It’s already hard on yourself, why do you even need another asshole in your life to make you even more miserable?Guys often find the idea of giving flowers on Valentine’s Day overly cliché since flowers would be expensive on that day and I only love white roses. Instead of asking…

  • Relationship

    The More Heartbreaks You Have, The Better It Actually Is

    Many people desire to have a relationship due to what they see on social media. What about breakups? Nobody would actually post about their breakups on social media instead, they would post as part of their Insta stories. When it comes to love, we learn how to love the other person the way he or she wants to be loved. Very often, we ignore the healing process of breakups and focus on moving on. I don’t know how lucky people are in relationships. Some of them may simply date once and find ‘The One’.  Whereas for myself, I have many experiences with heartbreak, a huge part of it is myself breaking…